It's been 13 days into the new year and I feel like things are moving steadily-- in a positive direction of course.

I don't have a new year's resolution that ends in failure; all I have is this body I am in and the decisions I decide to make. I'm sure I'll make some silly ones (hopefully not as bad as 2010), but I also feel that I'll make some wise and reasonable ones.

I didn't say this before, but my new year started off on a really good note. I went out on a date with a guy I had been talking to for awhile (one that is also age appropriate for me, lol). It went really well and my feelings for him have gotten stronger for the most part. He's different than other guys I've dated. He really knows what he wants and knows who he is. It's nice to have someone like that because I can be a confused little chicken. He's also the complete opposite of me in every way possible. For some reason, I'm really okay with that. It doesn't bother me at all. I enjoy that he already knows his stance on life. I don't want to change his mind and I surely don't want him to change mine.

I'm trying not to think too much about it, though at times, I find myself going into a mental frenzy. It's natural I suppose, considering I am kind of a crazy hopeless romantic. I'm just seeing where it takes me. I'm afraid, but a little fear is sometimes a good thing.

I think as a girl, we think too much. Our minds go into these whirlwind of possibilities and we tend to carry judgment with our emotions. It's irritating. I wish I could just sit back and relax, but I am constantly thinking about what will happen next. Luckily though, he is very predictable.

Right now, I'm in the process of applying to do some volunteer work and that excites me more than ever. I can't wait to get my hands busy and begin working with kids. Out of all the things I've done, I find being around kids most satisfying. They irritate you like no other, but at the same time, you learn how to handle it all. I'm too pumped!

I think 2010 was probably the most horrible year I have been through. I made some dumbass decisions.